I haven’t reached an absolute decision, but I may be through with my internship. John and I have agreed to call this: taking a better position that happens to be in our apartment. And no, I did not mean to make that sound sexual. The truth is that I am so tired and uninspired from being in the studio all day that I can’t make the time or space to design and work on my own display cakes. Which means I can’t build a portfolio. And that means, no real work by Irina anytime soon. This is unac… Continue

This morning I took a pregnancy test. Even though I knew for certain it would be negative. Except that there were so many possible things going on just days ago. And there was even the hint of implantation spotting. But then, when I started to feel cranky in a very familiar and unwelcome way, when I started to notice my spotting looked much more like my period was coming, I just knew it hadn’t happened yet. But I took the test anyway. Because it seemed like something I had to do… Continue